OK, so I've been holding out on something else, too. I didn't want to blog about it until I was sure, and I wasn't sure because it was so early, but now I'm pretty certain. I am feeling the baby move!! I don't feel it all the time, not even every day, but I am occasionally feeling the little tiny kicks. The first time was Dec. 17 (exactly 15 weeks), at an annual cookie exchange. I was sitting at the dining table talking to my friend Ann and I felt what seemed to be a little bubble. It was there one second, then then gone. I didn't react, or say anything, but I was pretty sure then that it was our little one. I had been trying to get the baby to make itself known to me for a while (which basically consists of belly rubbing and pep talks on the couch), so it was great! It almost felt like gas, but it was somehow less fluid. It was like a firm bubble. I don't know how to describe it!! But it was awesome!! And then, the next day, as I took my tax final, I felt the baby move twice! And I have been feeling little movements periodically since then. Just this morning, I was lying in bed with DH and family cat, cuddling, and the little one wanted to make me aware that (s)he was awake too. I can't wait until the kicks become more regular, and a bit stronger. (I might regret that wish when I'm trying to sleep in May and baby's showing off its mad soccer skills).
Anyway! Wanted to share. And document. :)
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Christmas Day
I know I posted yesterday and didn't mention this, but I was tired and busy at the same time, and I wanted to focus on the positive aspects of the trip home for Christmas. Here's the scary part.
Christmas Eve night I had some serious drama (family stuff) and I was pretty upset. DH was great at calming me down, and I had just settled and decided to go to bed when I went to the bathroom and there was a bit of brown spotting. My heart sank. I kept telling myself not to get too upset again, that it's bad for baby, and told DH. I called my doctor and the nurse said I should be seen within the next 24 hours, immediately if it didn't slow down. She kept mentioning incompetent cervix, and describing the procedure they'd do if that was the problem. It was scary.
Luckily the spotting slowed down over the next hour or hour and a half, so I went to bed. We woke up Christmas morning (to more, lighter, spotting) and headed to the ER. The doc there was really nice. He felt my uterus and said he would have guessed I was 18 weeks - it's right up there by my belly button! (I was 16 weeks 1 day). He quizzed me on the certainty of my due date (I told him I was pretty sure since I'd been charting), and then he said we're probably just having a big baby. EEK! Anyway, then he listened to the baby's heartbeat (again, such an amazing sound). He said he thought it was probably just some quirky thing, and I probably didn't need a full exam. I said let's do it anyway - I couldn't get that stupid nurse's voice out of my head. So he did, and it was fine. He said worse case scenario the bleeding doesn't stop and I have to come back in, and it might be placenta previa, but most likely it's just the placenta bleeding along the edge. No big deal, and I can wait until my next doctor's appointment to check it out unless it comes back. Whew. Breathe.
It's over now - no more spotting - and the next morning my belly popped. I feel much better, but I'll probably not be totally at ease until our big ultrasound next month.
Christmas Eve night I had some serious drama (family stuff) and I was pretty upset. DH was great at calming me down, and I had just settled and decided to go to bed when I went to the bathroom and there was a bit of brown spotting. My heart sank. I kept telling myself not to get too upset again, that it's bad for baby, and told DH. I called my doctor and the nurse said I should be seen within the next 24 hours, immediately if it didn't slow down. She kept mentioning incompetent cervix, and describing the procedure they'd do if that was the problem. It was scary.
Luckily the spotting slowed down over the next hour or hour and a half, so I went to bed. We woke up Christmas morning (to more, lighter, spotting) and headed to the ER. The doc there was really nice. He felt my uterus and said he would have guessed I was 18 weeks - it's right up there by my belly button! (I was 16 weeks 1 day). He quizzed me on the certainty of my due date (I told him I was pretty sure since I'd been charting), and then he said we're probably just having a big baby. EEK! Anyway, then he listened to the baby's heartbeat (again, such an amazing sound). He said he thought it was probably just some quirky thing, and I probably didn't need a full exam. I said let's do it anyway - I couldn't get that stupid nurse's voice out of my head. So he did, and it was fine. He said worse case scenario the bleeding doesn't stop and I have to come back in, and it might be placenta previa, but most likely it's just the placenta bleeding along the edge. No big deal, and I can wait until my next doctor's appointment to check it out unless it comes back. Whew. Breathe.
It's over now - no more spotting - and the next morning my belly popped. I feel much better, but I'll probably not be totally at ease until our big ultrasound next month.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Merry Christmas from baby!
DH and I woke up on Wednesday morning and there was an extra belly in bed with us. :)
Friday, December 21, 2007
Annoyed
Airport lines (with family cat) + not being able to get anywhere anyway + dressed for warmer weather + public transportation + walk through the snow with bags and family cat + pregnancy hormones. You tell me how my morning was!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Growing Pains
I've been having some stabbing pain in my lower abdomen. I think it's just ligament pain, but it's annoying. And it's scary at times - it comes and goes, but sometimes it's pretty painful. Especially when I catch myself off guard and sneeze. Eek!
But the good news is, my belly is starting to come out a bit. I noticed it in the shower the other day... DH said now it's undeniable, and I'm happy to say that someone outside our little family acknowledged it! I showed my friend PT, and she said she could see it too! I won't say what she said it looked like... but she saw it! :)
But the good news is, my belly is starting to come out a bit. I noticed it in the shower the other day... DH said now it's undeniable, and I'm happy to say that someone outside our little family acknowledged it! I showed my friend PT, and she said she could see it too! I won't say what she said it looked like... but she saw it! :)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
14 weeks...
So, according to the scale at the doc's office, I've gained two pounds since my checkup at 10 weeks. Which is good. That was the first relief of the day.
The second relief was the beautiful woosh-woosh-woosh coming from my belly. I love that sound.
Big ultrasound at Big Hospital on Jan 22. Hopefully we can find out the sex of the baby! DH thinks it's a boy (or at least strongly hopes). I maintain my thought that it's a girl. I call the baby she and her. We'll see soon enough. :) Exciting!!
The second relief was the beautiful woosh-woosh-woosh coming from my belly. I love that sound.
Big ultrasound at Big Hospital on Jan 22. Hopefully we can find out the sex of the baby! DH thinks it's a boy (or at least strongly hopes). I maintain my thought that it's a girl. I call the baby she and her. We'll see soon enough. :) Exciting!!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
Weighty Issues
So maybe this is partially just me being a normal pregnant woman, worried about everything, but I have to get it out anyway. I am worried that I haven't gained any weight. I lost 5 pounds in the first trimester, and have been really steady at my current weight for at least a month. (5 pounds down). I'm 14 weeks now, and my belly is starting to stick out a bit (though, again, hardly anyone can tell - maybe no one but DH and me), and I'm still net negative. All the websites say I should have gained about 5 by now. We'll see what the doctor says on Thursday, but I'm nervous.
And since it's been almost a month since I've been to el doctor, I feel nervous about the upcoming visit. What if they can't find the heartbeat? Or what if they do but they don't know that the baby's not growing correctly? So much can still go wrong, I'm still worried. I know that stress and worrying don't help anything, but I'm still nervous. It's weird because I'm so excited about this baby but at the same time part of me tries to make some sort of wall, preparing myself for the possibility that it won't pan out. As is typical of my ever-planning personality, I am always thinking of what to do if we get bad news. I actually had to stop myself from making a list of people we'd email just in case. How morbid is that? Seriously.
I am ready to go to the doc, hear the baby's heartbeat, and feel a bit more at ease. But I have a final to study for before that. Perhaps that means I should get to outlining Securities law. Blech.
And since it's been almost a month since I've been to el doctor, I feel nervous about the upcoming visit. What if they can't find the heartbeat? Or what if they do but they don't know that the baby's not growing correctly? So much can still go wrong, I'm still worried. I know that stress and worrying don't help anything, but I'm still nervous. It's weird because I'm so excited about this baby but at the same time part of me tries to make some sort of wall, preparing myself for the possibility that it won't pan out. As is typical of my ever-planning personality, I am always thinking of what to do if we get bad news. I actually had to stop myself from making a list of people we'd email just in case. How morbid is that? Seriously.
I am ready to go to the doc, hear the baby's heartbeat, and feel a bit more at ease. But I have a final to study for before that. Perhaps that means I should get to outlining Securities law. Blech.
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